Just sadness

Really being turned down by them one by one. This disappointment, is just there, not ready to go to dispair, I am scared.

Why would my life be like this forever. I strived, not getting things I wanted, always less than best, always pains to swallow.

Do not know whom to believe and believe in. His help, confuse me right now.

God, how can I recover.

I hate growing up, having to take responsibilites. Forgive me.